The past 5 years of my life was a crazy ride. Broken relationship and then calling off an engagement. The only thing that I regretted about it was not losing the person I once care but losing myself. Changing myself to fit in to where I was not belong from the very beginning was just plain foolish but I am glad I stood up for myself and walk away.
My personal relationship went down into the drain and then I am tested in many more aspects. I am stabbed. I fell hard. I hit rock bottom and was at my worst state. I am diagnosed with mild depression. I thought I am gonna die just anytime.
I have never publicly tell about what I have been going through and for me to write this on my blog took me a while but someone reached out to me asking for help saying that she’s at her worst state. I think it’s okay for me to tell a bit about my crazy roller coaster ride.
I don’t wanna use the word ‘failure’, I have taught myself that instead of thinking that you failed to do it, think what you can learn from this and how do you improve yourself and come back stronger.
I decided to get back on my heels and start getting my goals one by one. The thing that I am so glad about having all the scars is I learnt to be content with myself. I am happy with what I am doing and my heart is at peace.
Not saying that all my problems are gone but I learnt to look at a bigger and brighter side of it. Taking care of myself is the best decision I have ever made.
To those whose reading this, no matter what you are facing right now. Please know that things will eventually get better. You will soon be able to walk away from your pain and remember what it taught you.
“I am proud of the warrior I’ve created from the ashes that were meant to bury me”Najwa Zebian
Wherever you are, whatever you do, whoever you are with, I pray for your well being, success & happiness. Embrace your scars. It’s the proof that you fought with all of you.